My life has changed from self-mastery work. I am not the same person who started in 2015. The first changes happened quickly. After just a few weeks the panic attacks, that used to visit me frequently, stopped. Feeling that I had an understanding of what was going on inside took away a lot of the anxiety I had about my reactions, fears, and thoughts. That was huge. Panic attacks had been there for a big part of my adult life and now – nothing. It gave me motivation and momentum to continue. I wanted more of that calmer, joyful state I was just starting to taste, in fact, my soul was craving it and I had found a practical approach that step-by-step would give me more of that. I was onboard.
As the journey continued with me doing both the self-mastery courses at pathwaytohappiness.com and going to retreats, I continued to have big shifts in my inner world and how I changed my mind. The process of distancing myself from my thoughts and instead of believing them started identifying the foundation of unconscious beliefs they were created from was very empowering. I could open the hood of the car, take apart the engine, and see how everything was working. I could start working on the engine itself, instead of being surprised over a warning light on the instrument panel or a weird sound inside the car and rush to the mechanic to have it fixed. Some things you want professionals to fix, like a heart attack or a nuclear power plant, but when it comes to yourself, your inner world, and your mind – shouldn’t you be the expert?
What I realized when I started changing my mind and the way I thought
The process of changing the way I thought and changing my mind felt brutal at times. Pockets of buried emotions opened up and I was at the hands of waves of emotions that I had been scared of feeling my whole life. But I was given a hands-on process to be with them and releasing them. Crying on the kitchen floor in the fetal position was apparently the new normal. Knowing that others had done it before me and come out on the other side helped. And this was a different kind of crying. It wasn’t indulging from a victim state and believing a story, it was letting a bunch of wild horses free.
As I got deeper into the practice I started noticing that the more I let go of emotions and beliefs, the more room was inside of me. Room for enjoying the moment, room for being silly and playful, and room for creation. The more I followed the formula of taking apart my old program of beliefs, the more I became the captain of my own ship (I know, it was a car before, but just roll with me here). I got more and more in tune with what I needed for my process and could start making adjustments and add ons to the practices I’d learned.
For example, I explored and practiced these techniques when learning how to change my mind and the way I thought:
- Meditation techniques
Several different techniques and their own exploration. From directing my attention to being with unpleasant emotions and going far beyond the mind.
- Body sensing techniques
Ways to access and release body memory. Releasing tension in the body from stored emotions.
- Trauma healing
Practices to process traumatic experiences that are stuck in short term memory and re-lived daily by the nervous system
There have been different phases of the process. The patterns inside had felt stuck for so long but once I started observing and releasing them, an internal movement started that hasn’t stopped. A movement of growth that has been guiding me to what is next to learn.
The journey looks different for everyone and you might need individual pieces to complement the process that you learn with the self mastery work. But it often starts in a similar place – with motivation and awareness. Motivation gets you started, wether it’s a wish to get out of suffering or a longing for a deeper understanding of self, the motivation needs to be there. Once that’s in place you need to build awareness of how your mind works and how your thoughts and reactions are a consequence of your unconscious beliefs. Once you see that you have a great opportunity to learn the skills needed to change them.
If you want to hear more about my journey you can listen to this new episode from the Awareness and Consciousness podcast, where Gary van Warmerdam interviews me about where I started, the changes I’ve made and what’s next.
#59 Self Mastery Interview with Eva – from The Awareness and Consciousness podcast:
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