Make 2025 the year you go from hurt and protection to embodying deep self-love and ridiculously good relationships
The embodied journey of becoming:
Being Me: February - June 2025
Being Me With You: August - December 2025
Early-Bird bonuses expiring in:
Are you ready to embody the YOU underneath old wounds and reactive patterns? And to lead with love in your relationships from there?
You’ve been healing emotional wounds and shifting protective patterns that were running your life and ruining your relationships. The inner work is starting to change you. You have a new understanding of the world and yourself, and tools to alchemize your triggers. You feel more free and hopeful again.
At the same time, you’re invited into deeper layers of yourself. You might feel more intense emotions than ever before. Your mind is somewhat confused about who you are and how to navigate the world without the old protection mechanisms. There are things you never had modeled – setting boundaries with love, feeling safe being vulnerable, trusting and leaning into life, expressing your needs, and simply being unapologetically you. While also having loving and wildly satisfying relationships with other humans!
This means you’ve reached a very potent place on your journey.
The time to build a new house. You’ve been busy taking apart an old belief system built out of fear and protection. You’ve been re-parenting yourself and meeting childhood needs.
But what about your adolescent and early adult years? The time to find your unique expression, power, and passion. The time to learn to challenge yourself as well as surrender to life. The time to mature in relationships and sex.
Most of us were domesticated through this phase in a not-so-helpful way. We got busy getting people to like us, decided to hide from the world, or escaped it through rebellion or distractions.
It’s time to undo and re-claim your becoming.
Let’s build you new house. A home in yourself based on love instead of fear and protection. Full of trust, power, radiance, authenticity and appetite for life. A love-making with your unique expression of life.
So if you feel like you’ve started to heal your wounds, KNOW all the stuff about inner growth, but still miss feeling fully alive and turning what you know into embodied living and relating…
...you've reached a very potent place on your journey.
A place that probably has you ask things like:
How do I know who I truly am?
As you go inward, it feels like what you’re finding is just more of what you are NOT. It’s a relief to find out you’re not your reactions. That the story your protector/wounded parts are telling is not true. That you’re not the Victim or the Villain. But you’re discovering that the Fixer or the Observer (that you thought were kind of good) are also protector parts.
So who are you then?? How do you know when you’re thinking and operating from a core self? And have all your relationships been a lie!?
Yes, you’ve felt glimpses of a different self and understand the idea of yourself as consciousness, something bigger, connected with everything… But where does your human fit in? How do you know how to live THIS life from integrity, and not lose your Self in relationships. How can you fully be YOU, with someone else?
How do I know what I want?
How do you know if you’re settling in a relationship that will never make you happy, or if you should get over yourself and be grateful for what you got?
Can you trust what you want, when you’ve been told it’s too much or has proven to lead you into nothing but dysfunctional relationships in the past?
You’re not alone in this pickle. Many of us lose touch with what we want after years of pleasing and protection from hurt. We’ve been connecting from our attachment wound, or gone after things we THOUGHT we wanted, only to find out they were compensation to feel better about ourselves.
Not to mention the identification with the mind we’ve been stuck in for most of our lives. A fear-based thinking that has us go back and forth trying to figure out the “right” answer.
How do I combine my spiritual and human self?
What started as a wonderful awakening has somehow turned into new musts and shoulds. Your Spiritual Ego is judging your human self for not being healed yet and still attracting the same unavailable or wounded people.
Something in you wants to take the moving truck and completely move into a spiritual idea of yourself, while hurt, shame, anger, and frustration become undesirable emotions that you judge yourself for having. (“And are probably causing me cancer – fuck.” #GoodVibesOnly)
This is an invitation to bring lofty spiritual ideas that we KNOW into embodied unconditional love towards your human. Because when you do, you step into the flow of life… as I discovered to my own surprise.
I found myself...
in a similar place a few years into my awakening journey. I had been going far out into the experience of consciousness, only to realize that I didn’t know much about the human I was inhabiting. In fact, I’d been turning away from her. I realized I didn’t know what I truly wanted, or even how to get in touch with it.
My wonderful but detached spiritual experience didn’t change my nervous system going into freeze when someone treated me badly. Or that I questioned myself about what I wanted in relationships, being told it “came from trauma”. Or that feeling what I didn’t want had been disconnected because of sexual abuse.
Even with all the deep spiritual work I had done, my relationships ended up in chaos and me in confusion and pain.
So I set out on a journey to find out:
What do I truly want?
I risked my comfortable known life to find the answers. I went traveling by myself, drove through the desert, retreated to silence, dated 15 men in one year, inquired, studied, felt, meditated, practiced, and went beyond the common answers… to have a fulfilling understanding of it.
And then something happened.
I thought I was trying to solve a problem but I had found a secret door to a whole new world. A deep forest spring covered in moss that started to sing as I uncovered it.
As I began to be honest with what I wanted and honour it in various ways, I started to feel alive and turned on. It was like life force rushed right into me.
It hit me that past spiritual teachings had also taught me to reject my human self. With it, I had created ideas of what I should be and feel, and kept comparing myself with them.
I had been at war with my human and with that – further from God than my spiritual ego wanted to admit.
When I started to turn that divine love I had come to know TOWARDS my human, the belonging that so many of my parts had longed for finally arrived.
I realized...
that what I want is life itself speaking through me. My unique human expression of life itself. “What I want” is what is moving me forward, what makes me grow, and what takes me on the next adventure. A force with wisdom my ego could only dream of.
By connecting with my wanting, I had connected with the flow of life itself and started to embody the me underneath the layers of conditioning.
You, like me, have probably learned to question that authentic desire, and allowed your mind to make the decisions. You have formed protection around it. Scared of where it will take you. And sometimes you have taken it way too seriously.
When you’re cut off from what you want, you’re cut off from your aliveness. Re-connecting with what you want will have you re-connect with life itself.
It gives you a new home to navigate life as a human from; without it, you’ll stay lost in the labyrinths of the thinking mind.
So I say:
It’s time for you to take it back. To activate it. To connect with it.
It’s your power, your play, your engine, your reason why.
I want you to feel it alive inside of you, and I want you to learn to navigate by it.
Your turn on. Your heart. Your soul.
To trust it, to receive and to let it flow through you.
Taking apart your old house will only get you so far…
It's time to find out what living from integrity truly means. It's time to BE you. so you can show up the way you want in relationships and life.
Easy enough, let's do this!
But chances are that you've been navigating your wanting in a domesticated way for most of your life...
Put others first
“Thinking about and serving my own needs is selfish.”
“What will others think?”
“When the kids are older and the house is remodeled…”
Do things right
“What is the right answer?”
“What is best to do?”
“What is responsible and reasonable?”
“What will make me popular?”
Skepticism and judgment
“That’s stupid.”
“It will never work.”
“Maybe for others but not for me.”
“Those are just daydreams.”
And when you set out on a mission to connect with your desires...
...a few challenges might occur.
You are so used to struggling and fighting, that you unconsciously reject a life where things get to be easy, pleasureful and joyful. You don’t know who you’d be without the belief of life as a struggle. Unconsciously you’re holding on to the old way you want to let go of.
You can’t seem to get in touch with what you truly want. You don’t even know what an authentic wanting feels like after putting everybody else first and reacting from survival (by fighting, withdrawing or pleasing). In surviving, there’s no room for getting in touch with what you want.
You’ve been overriding the signals from your body with the program of your mind.
Your nervous system still reacts in the old patterns, no matter how much you KNOW about your attachment wound or conscious relating.
You’re afraid of feeling deeply. You’ve unconsciously built an inner world where you’ve escaped to and relied on your mind to avoid pain and stay safe and in control.
You’re conditioned to feel shame around your wantings and haven’t found peace with your dis-owned, shadow parts.
And maybe, after exploring and finding refuge on spiritual paths, you’ve suppressed your wanting even more because “We’re all consciousness and consciousness wants nothing. A pure spirit has no desire.”
So you'll need to:
👉 Practice connecting with your body and what you want.
👉 Acknowledge and welcome the parts that feel scared about feeling deeply.
👉 Re-connect with parts of yourself you’ve disassociated from.
👉 Inventory your deepest fears of living a life of ease and pleasure.
👉 Re-train your nervous system to feel safe receiving goodness and connection
👉 Release old conditioned shame around your wantings, your weaknesses, and your power.
And re-activate deep soulfelt aliveness and turn-on about being you!
That's exactly what I've specialized in. I've created an alchemical process that makes these shifts to you and where you're so supported in doing the work
Because it's unbelievable rewarding!
When you’re connected with and embody your wanting, you’re connected to life. It’s the secret door to being your full authentic self.
The only way to truly have the connected relationships you’ve been longing for.
But there's more. You will also:
- have an inner compass to navigate life decisions with
- communicate your desires and needs in relationships
- feel alive, fulfilled and turned-on
- make decisions aligned with your soul and heart
- set boundaries with kindness and clarity
- know what is a no and a yes for you
- feel deep love for yourself and acceptance of all parts of you
- hold others with grace because you met with all of yourself
- appear with radiance and magnetism to others
- find your creativity and inspiration
- attract a new type of people and situations into your life
- feel supported by life
- lose the need for protection mechanisms, like people pleasing, aggression, avoidance, procrastination and more
Sounds too good to be true?
Well, I had the same thought.
What if it was just me?
When I put together the first version of Being Me, I honestly didn’t know if it would work on anyone else. I was surprised and THRILLED when week after week, members were coming back with shifts and experiences of pleasure, more capacity to feel emotions, and feeling alive.
After five rounds of this alchemical process, you can read what members have been experiencing below.
It exceeded all my expectations and opened so many doors I didn't even know EXISTED. Who knew life could be this freaking amazing?"
What you get
Being Me comes in two 5-month programs: Being Me and Being Me With You.
Join for 5 months – OR the full yearlong journey with a package discount.
A unique coaching program to activate aliveness, reclaim your power, and navigate relationships and life from your authentic self.
The full initiation in the Turn On framework; the jaw-droppingly effective way of creating a soulful and deeply joyous life from integrity. Through monthly themes, weekly embodiment practices, activation calls, coaching calls, group pods, and guest teachers.
Turn-on = Having your light turned on, energy moving through you and feeling excited about being you
The Turn On framework:
1. What You Want
What you want is your compass to your own unique expression of life. There's nothing to figure out. In fact, what you want doesn't live in the mind at all. You need to feel and trust. Your mind might panic and say "But I CAN'T FEEL anything!!". That's okay. You'll learn the skills and activate your own wanting. You probably wouldn't be here if you had that mastered already.
2. Loving Yourself
Where you get to step out of and old program of self-rejection with shame, scarcity and distrust and align with life itself. Underneath the conditioned program is deep and nurturing self love that never left. The feeling of truly loving yourself is of moving into the flow of life. Life is already loving life. When you start loving every single part of you there is a power that starts flowing and operating through you, guiding your way.
3. Feminine/ Masculine dynamic
The oldest archetypes and alive in everything created. You see the push-and-pull of their dance all around you if you open your eyes to it. This dance is alive in you too, but chances are you are stuck in less mature versions of them. With mistrust, criticism and suppression between the two. This internal dynamic is showing up in your external relationships as well. As above so below, as without so within. This is where you get to understand and heal this dynamic so you can fall deeper in love with life.
4. Sexual energy activation
Unifying your will and living from integrity means reversing the flow of your energy. Your energy, your personal power, has been leaking, leaving your heart unpowered like an abandoned and dusty power plant. When you reverse the flow, utilize your sexual energy and bring it from the lower centers UP into your heart, and the energy from the upper energy centers DOWN into the heart - your will is unified and your being is merged at the heart.
A one-of-a-kind embodied relationship dojo to finally close the gap between the relationships you want and your capacity to have them.
The full initiation into leading from love in relationships as your authentic self. Through monthly themes, nervous system training, weekly embodiment practices, coaching calls, group pods, and guest teachers.
To take Being Me With You, you need to do Being Me first. We want you relating from your authentic, turned-on self!
In Being Me With You:
1. THE ENERGETICS OF RELATING
Learn to communicate with a unified will instead of sending mixed signals. An initiation to use your attention and direct the energy flow of a relationship. This is where you finally understand why people never listen or have felt run over by you. You'll leave with more freedom and confidence in the energetic dance of relating!
2. USING CONFLICT AND REPAIR TO DEEPEN INTIMACY
No more collapsing and hopelessness in a conflict. In this module you'll practice feeling safe during relationship challenges and treat them as opportunities. You'll find your embodied boundaries, learn to communicate them and what's needed for repair. You'll know how to love and alchemize friction into deeper connection and trust.
3. POLARITY IN RELATING
Now that you've been healing your inner fem/masc dynamic, it's time to translate that into relationships for a magnetizing feeling of connection. Even doing the laundry, walking past eachother, driving the car or sending a text becomes foreplay - when you want it to. By embodying one of the poles, you invite your partner (or date) to step into the other and create electricity, trust and deep attraction.
4. SEX AND INTIMACY
Sex is a meeting with God. "It doesn't always have to be that right? What about a quickie or when the kids are young?" Why wouldn't you want sex to be an effortless melting experience into divine consciousness, upleveling your cells and blowing your mind - even during a quickie!? Here you'll shed old habitual patterns, shame and insecurities and become a sex god/goddess - in your own way.
Monthly
My signature program comes with both practices to do on your own, as well as live calls, personal coaching with me and so much support, community and connection. You don’t have to be there live for all the sessions – when you can’t there will be a recording. Able to connect live for 1 teaching session, 1 coaching session, and 1 pod session a month? Perfect!
2-hour activation Session with Eva
Where you'll be initiated into this month's topic and I'll activate the energy of the teachings in you. You'll practice celebrating yourself and others, be in community as your authentic self, emotional release through movement, nervous system regulation and more. Sessions will be recorded.
Once monthly on Sundays 5pm Central European Time (8am Pacific US | 11am Eastern US | 4pm UK | 1am Australia - Monday)
embodied practices
With each theme you have a mix of guided video/audio practices to pick from. You don't have to do all of them to experience shifts - follow and trust your desire! We move through the Turn-On framework with practices on: what you want, loving yourself, forgiveness, receiving pleasure, play and power, life force energy, trust and more.
4 coaching sessions w Eva
Bring your questions around the practices or a deeper blockage or longing and we'll work through it together. Eva helps you navigate resistance and beliefs in the way. We will also do group practices so you get practiced with being you around others. Sessions will be recorded.
One weekly sessions on Tuesdays, alternating between 4pm and 7pm Central European Time.
group pod sessions
Led by facilitators, these more intimate pods are open to join and will happen on different times and days throughout the month. Share about your journey and listen to other's experiences, practice expressing from what you're feeling, rather than your thinking and hold space for other's doing so. Sessions are not recorded
Accountability partner
You decide if you want an accountability partner to connect and practice with during the program. We help you find a partner that fits your time zone and your wish for frequency of calls.
Not a group person?
You're not alone being hesitant about a group setting, most people joining have the same concern. And yet, the group experience is what participants are often the most moved and surprised by after our time together. Being fully supported and accepted by other humans might feel new. There's healing happening when there's no conflict between standing with yourself and being part of a community. What if there's a brother/sisterhood you could actually thrive from!
Month by month
january: foreplay practices
Your foreplay practices connects you with your intention for the journey. Go through them before our Opening Session and find your fire!
february: program starts
Our live sessions and monthly themes starts in the beginning of February with an Opening Session. Meet your fellow travellers and kick off the journey with a deep juicy bang.
Feb-Jun: Being me running
Moving through the Turn-On Framework with weekly calls with me. Fears are being met with, exiled parts integrated. You're more present in your body, excited about being you and finally feel like yourself!
Aug-Dec: being me with you running
Now that you've connected with your authentic self - let's re-train your nervous system to feel safe relating from there. Old patterns are shedded, new neural pathways formed. You're confident leading from love instead of collapsing when friction happens and excited to have embodied and deeply connected relationships!
I'm here today because my song has changed from “Save Me” to “True Colors” and “I Can See Clearly Now” because Eva's teachings actually work.
I am so grateful that I decided to jump off that fence."
Bonuses
But there’s more! Being Me is not an online course, but a powerful coaching program and an initiation into an embodied way of life. Your bonuses add to a profound transformational experience.
The foundation: ALCHEMY program
My foundational program that teaches you the embodied art of healing your emotional wounds and shift your automated reactions. While Alchemy takes apart your old house, Being Me build the new.
Alchemy is included with your BEING ME spot so that you can come back here when an old wound or pattern shows up to be met with.
If you've already bought Alchemy you get to take up to $333 off when you join Being Me!
connecting with your body and melting tension with Meytal Blanaru
To experience pleasure, joy and all that you are, you need to drop out of survival state, into your parasympathetic nervous system and let old compulsive patterns melt away. There's few methods more powerful than Feldenkrais® for this, and few teachers more passionate than Meytal Blanaru who has created her own movement method based on Feldenkrais®.
Meytal will share subtle movement practices that will melt old physical tension and pain, and invite more freedom to be you.
Guest Teacher: Chris Bale
A sought after energy worker and intimacy coach, Chris Bale brings deeply felt embodied presence. He has a masterful skill of snooping out stuck energy and open the door for it to flow again.
Chris will join us for a 90-min session with conversations where you'll feel energy from old beliefs and wounds being released.
continued access to practices - and alumni discount on future live rounds
After moving through Being Me, you keep access to the practices so you can revisit and stay connected. Many have done several rounds of Being Me (not because it didn't work the first time, but because it worked so well and they want more) and if you find out you want that too, you get to join future rounds of Being Me with a big discount!
I can feel so many shifts still happening within me which is awesome!! Thinking about it makes me smile so much and I feel so much love for everyone who was a part of it. It was such a relief to stop pretending and just FEEL and be honest and have whatever was alive inside me that day be completely accepted and loved by everyone. Eva is awesome!! Worth every penny. Thank you so so much ☺️"
Is this program for you?
Being Me is an alchemical program for seekers of all genders, looking to live and relate from love, instead of fixing themselves. Longing to get to know themselves underneath reactive patterns, find what they truly want, and have ridiculously good relationships from there. To step out of struggle and embody trust with life itself, and to bring spiritual concepts into tangible embodied living as a messy human.
It's for you if you...
- Feel you don't know what you want around others and in life, or have been so disconnected from your deeper wantings that you're not sure who you are anymore
- Experience looping patterns in your relationships and so ready to break free
- Have been doing self-awareness work, are wondering who the heck you are under the old protective mechanisms and want to get to know a more true sense of self
- Avoiding real vulnerability - the ability to speak from what you're truly feeling. Not in touch with your emotions combined with over-feeling
- Are finding out that you've lived most of your life from survival state and are ready to find out what a life of ease, pleasure and receiving goodness could be like
- Are tired of feeling stuck in your mind and fear-based thinking and long to connect more with your emotions and your body
- Been playing people pleasing, hero and fixer roles and are great at tuning in to other's needs but not your own
- Have read all the teachings and the books, feel tired of concepts, and long to actually start embodying love and trust
- Have an insecure attachment and want to lead from love instead of fear in relationships
- Have a hard time setting boundaries in a loving and clear way
- Find it difficult to navigate life decisions and keep getting stuck in "on one hand... and on the other hand"
- Have made "I'm fine" your mantra, since you don't want to burden others or appear needy. You've made an honour of being low maintenance
- Understand the concept of self-love but find it hard to break lingering programs of unworthiness, shame and self-criticism
Plus...
- You have some tools to observe the stories of your mind. You might be pulled there a lot of the time, but you have the skills to recognize, shift out and inquire - when you remember.
- You want the actual experience, not just the theory. You're motivated to do the work and know that skills come from practice.
- You see the value in learning from each other as a group (even if it's outside your old lone wolf routine) and are willing to show up and share a bit (even if it means challenging an old pattern or two).
- You've got around 30 min most days, and another 90 minutes once a week to dedicate to this work. You're willing to let your everyday life be your practice ground.
It's probably not yet for you if you...
- Have a strong victim identification that you want to keep (blaming others for the relationship dynamics you're experiencing)
- Rather stay in your belief that a good, inspiring life is not possible for you
- Think you already know everything there is to know about life and inner work - and show up with a full cup. "I have heard this before, I already know it". (Cool, but are you embodying it?)
- Looking for more knowledge and not willing to take action and practice
- Are a complete beginner to self-awareness work
- Want to keep operating from your thinking mind only
But always trumping all of the above is if you feel a strong calling to activate your own inner knowing and embody trust with life itself. If you’re reading this page and feel a tingling or something pulling at your heart…..
Trust that.
Being Me is not an online course, it's a way of life.
Are you ready to embody the YOU underneath the old program of beliefs?
To step out of struggle and into flow with life itself, and to have the ridiculously good relationships you've always dreamt of?
reserve your spot in
Being me
your best investment yet
What is it worth to fall deeply in love with life and yourself? To have the nourishing relationships you want. To feel turned on and excited. To finally live YOUR life and discover your passion and desires. To move out of struggle and moving mountains, and instead trust and let your next steps come to you with ease. It’s time to stop investing in the known and your past, and invest in your embodied, turned-on future. Your future self will thank you.
10 hours of coaching monthly, with other options:
- 1-1 work with me ≈ $4000/month
- Therapy > $800/month
Which won’t give you the alchemical practices, embodiment, group intention, and community… which is 80% of the shifts in this program!
Save up to $600 and receive exclusive early-bird bonuses when you register in December:
Get BEING ME for $310 monthly! (or $3000 in full)
Get BEING ME and BEING ME WITH YOU for $255 monthly! (or $4400 in full)
- 5 or 10 months activation of your authentic self and the relationships you want
- Eva's personal guidance in Monthly Activation Sessions and weekly Coaching Sessions + recordings when you can't be there live
- Monthly themes with embodied practices that create shifts at the core
- Group pod sessions to choose from - for practice, accountability and connections
- Exclusive online group in the Embodied Community (access from your computer or phone)
- A community of fiercely loving truth seekers for support and connection
- Special bonuses and guest sessions to deepen and support your journey
- Continued access to practices and members. PLUS alumni discount on future rounds!
Our own online community
Your practices and the recordings from our calls will be available in our own private group in the Embodied Self Mastery Community (no social media account needed) – both accessible through your browser or an app for Android and iPhone. Asking questions, sharing insights and connecting with other members is now super easy. RSVP to our next call and find the Zoom-link right there.
So we can focus on the fun stuff.
Common Questions
I didn’t use to be either, and the people who join my groups are often similar lone wolfs. I’ve learned that staying in that bubble can be great, but we are also missing out. It can become a safe house, and a prison after a while.
Learning and sharing in a group setting will bring new possibilities for growth and for you to become aware of patterns in the way of the life you want for yourself. It’s okay to show up and feel shy or uncomfortable. A lot of the times we realize we are not the only ones feeling this way. You don’t have to share during the calls if you don’t want to, there is still a lot to take away from listening and do the practices.
I think you already know if this is the next step on the journey for you… Simply ask yourself “Do I feel excited from the thought of joining?” And right there, you have already started practicing connecting to what you want for yourself. The mind might step in afterwards and say “But..” and “What if…”, but you already know the answer.
Not feeling ready doesn’t equal that it’s not a good fit. When do we ever feel ready for ANYTHING? Are you going to live by the belief that you have to feel ready for it to be a good fit? Better measuring stick: are you committed to the change you want?
Also – building the new house WHILE you take apart the old one will often speed up the process. You have a new consciousness to land in, something receiving you as your old patterns fall away. A question to ask yourself: what else is your belief that “you’re not there yet” holding you back from in life?
Yes. Things will fall apart and change, old things will die and new things will come into your life. But old things will also change and upgrade. The mind is often afraid of this because it projects outcomes and fear into a potential future. Are YOU ready to let go of things that don’t serve you?
AND you always have a choice. You can keep whatever you want to and still get HUGE benefit and value from the practices.
It is high-level stuff. And so are you. Why are you distancing yourself from things high-level? Could it be a protection mechanism to avoid the feeling of failing that a part of you can’t stand? If so, do you want to keep living by that pattern, or take a different action?
(PS. A high-level way of being YOU and feeling joy and turn-on is your birthright… It doesn’t require a PhD in philosophy. No one but you can do it and you can’t do it wrong.)
That’s what Martha thought too! She’s in her seventies and has felt very shy in speaking in front of others her whole life and like she’d never fit in. This is what she said after being in the group:
“My experience in this course was incredibly wonderful. I was hesitant to sign up for it, with parts of me saying ‘You will not fit in. You are too old and too shy.’ But I never felt that way in the course. You provide such safety for and acceptance of others. You embody such wisdom in how to guide others into areas where they continue to long to be once they get even a little glimpse of. Your beautiful superpowers helped me move much further beyond what had so long been big limits, big barriers to pleasure and truly living to now seeing a new and happier way to be. Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!”
That was after the first round. She has since then done a second round, travelled across the world to come to the in-person retreat in Sweden AND signed up for the coming round. I’ll never forget her stepping into our closing circle during the retreat and shout: “I brag my fucking shyness!!”
Actually, a majority of the people joining think they are too shy, won’t see any results and get left behind. It doesn’t mean that it’s true.
Martha and I during the Being Me retreat in Sweden, June 2022.
Yes, this group can seem all positive vibes and being in your power and experiencing pleasure and ease… If that’s not where you’re at right now and you’re moving through layers of anger, hopelessness, or sadness, the gap can seem big, and like you would be out of place in this group.
What I want you to know is: There’s never anything wrong with what you’re experiencing.
AND:
All emotions are welcome in Being Me. That’s actually one of the big things that we’re practicing – accepting and welcoming all parts of us. That IS how you get to more love for yourself.
You are welcome to our sessions with anything going on. It’s never about censoring or putting on a brave face.
The big question is:
Do you want to hang on to the pain, anger, hopelessness…? Or would “a positive environment” be something you’d like for yourself as well?
The reason I ask – when there have been events in our past that we needed protection from and we feel that anger or any other emotion has been the only thing protecting us, it can feel very scary to let go of it. It can also be the only way we know how to operate, and what we feel we are worthy of. That’s okay, and it will all unfold as you keep uncovering layers. There’s no need to rush this, everything has its time.
If you DO want to stay mainly in the anger, sadness or hopelessness right now (which again, is okay) there might be strong resistance to the pleasure, ease and joy that we’re connecting with in Being Me. There are been participants showing up at that place, and they have mostly felt the resistance the first round, but have STILL honored their deeper longing for the ease and pleasure so they have wanted to meet that resistance, get to know it and be in an environment they can be nurtured from. And some of them have gone for another round.
You see, you can have both. You can move through layers of emotions and release layers while you’re also connecting to the new dream and what you want for yourself. Life is never one single thing. You get to have it all.
I would say these are the three main reasons for joining another round:
1️⃣ Your journey is somewhat like an onion, or a Russian Doll. You get to clear and heal things in one layer and then you start seeing a new layer. So what you applied the practices to last time might feel complete, and now there might be a new area that is calling for your attention. Being Me is a container for you to put loving awareness on your own process, wherever it’s at, not a study-group to learn new theory and once it’s done it’s done.
2️⃣ As many of the members who’ve done several rounds can tell you, Being Me is not the same every year. The core of embodiment and navigating what you want from your turn-on is the same, but I’ll teach it in different ways and bring in new aspects of it each time. It’s a program that’s alive and keeps changing according to what’s alive in me and the group. You’ll definitely pick up new insights and practices each time.
3️⃣ The collective dream of analyzing, being stuck in your head and operating from fear and survival state is strong on the planet. Most people live by it. If you’re able to completely break out of that dream and heal your feminine/masculine dynamics, live in your body and fully operate from love and trust after one round of Being Me – I celebrate you! I know for me I’ve needed to connect with a different dream again and again until it started to come fully alive in me.
Providing for yourself with support and reminders as we move through changing it all… is an act of self-love. A tribe, a sister-and brotherhood, of likeminded is essential. I often see people denying themselves that from some idea that they “should be done by now”…
PLUS it feels fucking good to brag, dance and be completely honest with an amazing group of people. How often do we get that in our “regular life”??
That’s a good thing! It means there’s potential and probably a very good reason for why you’re feeling the way you are. Your life force lives in your body and you need to connect with it. That you can’t feel it now doesn’t mean that you won’t be able to. That the tree doesn’t have leaves in the winter doesn’t mean it won’t in the summer…
You have taken on some of society’s and your family’s beliefs around what sex is. And probably formed some of your own from experiences and events during your life. You’ve made agreements about what sex is and your relationship to it. Maybe you don’t trust yourself around it, or have concluded it’s not for you.
How has that been working for you? Are you ready to question even 10% of those agreements and release some of the shame? You can decide to keep the rest! (But I doubt you want to when you see how they have been cutting you off from a superpower.)
There are other ways of utilizing your sexual energy than through sex. Your sexuality is a connection to life force and when you realize it’s there for YOU to enjoy, not to please or perform, it will turn your light back on. If you want to know more you can listen to this episode of the Uncover YOU podcast.
I’m sneaky that way. It’s not until we welcome and accept them that we open up a space where they can truly become self-aware, have their needs met and are willing to change.
And the big piece in the ego-death process isn’t even that the characters have to die, but that your identification with them does.
That’s a neat solution, but those parts are already running your life in ways you might not know. What you resist persists. Bringing it UP from the underworld and into awareness will give it LESS power over you. It’s not about allowing them to roam in destructive ways, but to meet with and integrate them.
They are often waay less scary than what our mind might think. It’s the mind who is afraid to feel what these parts are feeling that form protection by telling stories of how TERRIBLE they are. They are part of your human. You’ll get support in embracing them. And when you do, you’ll grow your sense of self, feel more free than you’ve ever done and wonder why you didn’t do that sooner.
But hey, you’re free to keep them hidden too.
That’s great awareness right there. You see the longing to join, and also the fear underneath the resistance and doubts around joining. How does it feel to see that?
And also: how would it feel to bring this part who are afraid with you into Being Me if you decide to join? What would be a way that this part would feel safer and like it’s heard?
It’s when we turn away from these parts of ourselves that their fear often overtakes us. When we turn towards them, hear them, and welcome them, we can give them what they need to be included on the journey.
That’s also what you’ll get to practice in Being Me. To welcome all parts of you and love them.
I’ll also let you in on a secret. I don’t have the exact numbers so don’t quote me, but a qualified guess would be that around 80% of all the Being Me members show up with a similar part…
Your scared part would be in good company.
- If you feel excited when reading about it, the practices and thinking about joining.
- If you’ve done some previous work with observing and shifting your thoughts and healing emotional wounds.
- If you feel motivated to get the direct experience, not just theory.
Then jump right in my friend.
The practical
You get access to the Being Me space immediately on sign-up, the foreplay practices in January and the main program starts in February.
The powerful thing with this program is that we use your daily life as your training ground. If you’ve got 30 min of attention on these practices on most days while you do your stuff, another 90 min to go through material, do a guided practice or attend a live call most weeks – you’ll get A LOT out of this.
Teaching Sessions are 2 hours on one Sunday every month. Coaching Sessions will be held on Tuesdays. On top of that, there will be smaller group pods with facilitators and the opportunity for your own accountability partner.
There will be recordings of all the sessions with me and you don’t have to be there live. I do recommend that you take part in 1-2 of any of the live calls each month to feel connected with the group.
Great! The monthly Live Sessions might be at a time that is very early morning for you but they will be recorded so you can watch at your own time. The weekly coaching sessions with me will alternate between 4pm and 7pm CET so that you should be able to catch at least two of them live without having to get up in the middle of the night.
On top of that, there will be several smaller group pods during the months, led by facilitators. And you have the option of an accountability partner that you can connect with as often as you like.
All sessions with me will be recorded and it’s okay if you can’t be there live. But I encourage you to show up live for at least 1-2 of any of the calls per month to feel connected to the group.
The Flamenco dancer holds such power and move through an abundance of bold and rich expressions. She doesn’t waste her power, she feels it within and let it explode where it’s meaningful. She feels each moment and each movement. There is exquisite grace and fierce power at the same time. She does not shy away from any expression or emotion, they are hers to have, to conquer and to dissolve.
Passion. Grace. Flow. Playfulness.
Knowing that her power is in feeling all of her.
When you know what you want, there’s no need to justify it or explain it. Wanting is enough. Wanting is the reason and turn on your compass.
Now you’ve stepped into the flow of life and you can create the life you want. Your expression matters. Your voice matters. You’re the only one who can use it.
Hi, I'm Eva
The Embodied Self Mastery work was what finally shifted my life after years of therapy, stress management, mindfulness and a feeling of hopelessness. I didn’t stop after I shifted some of my most uncomfortable beliefs but kept going and changed my internal world from a state of depression, PTSD and panic attacks to joy, peace and excitement about life. And a brain and heart in coherence.
I started combining self mastery work with meditation, somatic experiencing and other practices which accelerated the progress. I learned how to create from intent and went on a personal quest to get in touch with what I wanted. I learned how to activate power through pleasure, and how everything I was taught about having to work hard to get what I want is a lie.
For several years, I’ve been teaching individuals and groups to change their inner world. Combining what I’ve gathered on my own journey, a big amount of research and passion, and my experience from working with others into what I call the Embodied Self Mastery work.
I want similar changes for you as I have experienced. I want you to feel turned on about your life creation and what it feels like to love yourself completely and align with life. I can’t wait to guide you through some of the most powerful activations I’ve practiced and fine-tuned.
/Eva Beronius
